Updated: Sep 5, 2019
Leading up to my twenty-second birthday, I feel the need to be recentered, refocused, and re-energized. After completing 21 days of veganism, I thought it would be fitting to do a similar "21 days" of something that would be transformative. Appropriately, the 21 days will end on my birthday, September 17th. As I approach some major next step moments in my life, like re-taking the LSAT (Law School Admissions Test), re-applying to law school, and moving across the country, these 21 days is necessary.
Being vegan, I learned how to feed my body the right things, what makes it feel good and look good, and now I wanted to be consistent with feeding and nurturing my spirit too. I have always been a woman of faith. I believe in miracles. I believe in a peace that I can only get from one place *points at the heavens*. I believe in the power of the tongue and speaking things into existence, even though I often have to reframe how I see things and the things that I speak. Do you struggle with this too?
In these 21 days, I hope to not only recenter my focus on what God has planned for my life, my family, my future, but to find peace and to walk into everything that he has called for me/for us, with confidence and grace and light. ✨
So far, my quiet time consists of a praise and worship (a song I feel moved to play/sing/worship to), daily devotion by Sarah Young, journaling and prayer. I try to make this something I have to do daily, I try to do it in the same place, and to go into it with an open heart and open spirit. It's hard. So often, I may not feel like taking the 15-20 minutes to just have time with God, which is crazy, but true. My mom and I have a collection of Sarah Young's daily devotions and it seems that they are always hand selected for me and how I'm feeling. The journaling is my favorite part. Journaling, for me, is where I get to be the most vulnerable, it's where I am honest with myself, it's where I write out my dreams and goals, my trials, and most importantly my prayers to seal the deal. It also allows me to reflect, reflect while I am going through, but also a means of seeing my prayers answered. 🙏🏾
So often, I can feel like everything is in a disarray and that I have to have everything figured out. This type of thinking leads me to feelings of self-doubt and worry, which in turn produces anxiety and fear. One thing I know for sure is that I was created for a reason, that I have a purpose and I must fulfill that. As long as I wake up each day, I will keep trying, fighting, pushing, and you have to too!
One of my favorite songs by Anthony Brown is Trust In You.
You did not create me to worry
You did not create me to fear
But you created me to worship, daily
So I'ma leave it all right here
No more crying, no more complaining
I believe your word is true
Lord you promised never to leave me
So this is what I'm going to do
I will trust in You, Lord.